Reflect, re-evaluate.
Reflect, re-evaluate. was posted on: Saturday, 25 May 2013 @5:02:00 pm | 0 love ★
This week has felt so hectic and crazy and has made me realise that I've come to a point where I need to know where I'm at and where I'm going to go from here.
So an issue with money came up on Tuesday and now I'm contemplating the pros and cons of different scenarios and it's doing my head in. To take on another job? and if so, how? when? where?
Another thing is my current work. What am I doing? It has actually made my passion for what I love decrease. I don't know whether it's just because I'm feeling over worked with me currently being on prac and also working both days of the weekends and i just need time to recoup or whether I'm just ready to... move on...?
It's honestly sad the way I'm feeling. What am i doing? Why am i doing this? Where can i go from this? Am i doing this really for myself now, or for others in my lives? And if i am, is it worth it?
I've also come to a point in my life where I want commitment. A fourth year prac student who is also at the centre where I'm on my prac now was talking about ideas and the level of commitment she currently had in mind and I reflected on my own. I seriously respect her so much though. A lot of people in my life actually. It makes me so glad to have met them and had been given the opportunity to get to know them. Ironically enough I have a feeling I went through the exact same thoughts a year ago around the same time period.
So the question,
Where are you going Desiree? And why?
Labels: defeated, inspiration, life, prac, private, sigh, uni, work
lost, wondering & wandering
lost, wondering & wandering was posted on: Friday, 17 May 2013 @5:38:00 pm | 0 love ★
When some co-prac students ask if i have a boyfriend and i'm just like. no, never have. #foreveralone and i laugh it off. but then a little part of me inside shrivels up inside and wonders if there's anything wrong with me? And then i try to make myself feel better by saying it's because i'm not social enough. maybe aye?
When your prac advisor critically analyses your prac work for a good half an hours and you're fine. but as soon she starts praising you, along with the director of the centre you start bawling. wtf self? wtf is wrong with you? sometimes i wonder if i should see someone and kind of see if i can uncover the cause of this overemotional crying.
Labels: defeated, life, prac, private, reflection, unhappy, uni
